The hardest thing I’ve ever done by far has been inviting God into my heart. Jeremiah 17:10 I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, eve to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings. There was quite a bit to search out in my dark heart of stone and ash. So many secrets hidden away deep down so no one would see. But God saw!! I could hide nothing from Him. I didn’t want to. As in Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? It was time to clean out that nasty old thing. As in Psalms 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. It was time for a new one. As in Ezekiel 36:26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you; and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh.
With all this I was not ready for such a dramatic and time consuming transformation or transition from the old to the new. Dramatic and time consuming because I resisted. I attempted in vain to keep the old in the new bottle only to realize it was pointless. As in Mark 2:22 And no man putteth new wine into old bottles: else the new wine doth burst the bottles, and the wine is spilled, and the bottles will be marred: but new wine must be put into new bottles.